So here goes my post raya entry. Hee…
I am very sure everyone had a blast raya this year kan? Mine was just okay & good Alhamdulillah even though it wasn’t that great (as in blast). :) But one thing I am very sure is, on the first day of Syawal I felt the so called real self contentment that I was hoping and praying for throughout Ramadhan. I am so glad for that… My Ramadhan & Syawal this year tersangat lah meaningful… And Ramadhan this year surely will be dearly missed. :)
The reason for that is because I am totally a mess before this. Even though I looked okay but deep inside I feel messed up inside out. But now, I am totally OK and I am now at an optimal point of happiness. Its true time is what we need the most when reasons cannot kan? And with things that happened one thing I am very sure is I love myself more now. More than you can imagine. Siapa jahat dengan saya, saya gigit dia. Hehe… And oh, I thank Allah for sending me a lot of cool people too, those who just listened quietly with things I told them without judgment but manage to rationalize me back without forcing me to do the right things (kononnya) or blaming me if I did something yang diorang tak setuju with.
Well, truth is I am in search of my real self. Tu je actually. :)
Anyway, may be for some people when it comes to hari raya it is the time to gather, kumpul ramai-ramai adik kakak kan? But do you ever thought of celebrating raya for yourself? Doing some self-reflection at least? Because most of the time we were occupied with raya preparation that surely melupakan kita about things that matter the most to ourselves, our soul. I know I am a bit “deep” here and I don’t think people will understand with what I am trying to say here rather than to be potentially untuk di-misunderstood for having a different and weird thought. Hee… Don’t blame me for being too different from you OK! This is who and how I am. I am a kind of girl yang sangat overly into myself that’s why…
Insha Allah for the next hari raya (next year) I want to travel out from Malaysia kot. So I really need to work hard for that. I am a big girl now and I know what I am going to get myself into, what I am good at, things that interest me, love and like. Insha Allah… I will work hard for that. :D Just wait and see, if ada rezeki, adalah… If takda I will try to make it ada. Haha… :D And you know what I am going to travel alone! Yeehaq! ;) Insha Allah… Mudah-mudahan jadi nyata. :D :D :D
Okay la gadis yang extremely obsessed with herself mahu stop… I think it is still not too late to wish you Selamat Hari Raya. Raya kan sebulan.. Maaf zahir batin OK.. :)
Selamat bekerja & belajar esok!
Eh eh eh... Before that, just wanna inform you that in the next entry I am going to blog about a family portrait session I photographed two weeks ago. So, tungggguuuuu :D
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