I present you a teaser from Khalid's convocation day! Uhuk~ I haven't fulfill my promise in the previous entry yet and now comes another. I am so excited, and so eager to show you , that's why! :D
Sneakpeak! :-)
Miri Division Gawai Dayak Dinner 2010
8th May 2010
Dewan Suarah, Miri
When I was in the car with my mom, she told me that my cousin in Kuching is getting married next month. Honestly, it is an awe-ing news to me because he is only 23 (ke 24) and he is getting married people. Well actually I am okay with it tho. So what if you want to marry at the age of 23. To me as long as you’re ready to commit your life for someone you love then okaylah kan. And most importantly sangat-sangat ready physically, mentally, emotionally and financially, nga ada masalah donkey!
Since I am in a big awe, so I said to my mom, “I always amaze with those people who is confident enough to marry a person they want to marry. How to know he or she is really the one eh, Mak?” Instead of answering my question my mom answered me with this “Ish… Aku jerak aku. Rugi kahwin awal… Jerak aku dengan hidup aku dolok.” Okay lemme translate if for you. My mom said “Ish… Aku menyesal kahwin awal. Menyesal aku dengan hidup aku yang dulu”. Oleh sebab I am not satisfied with her answer at all so I answered her “Ya Mak yang carik pasal”yang bermaksud “Tu Mak yang carik pasal”. Terdiam. LOL.
I didn’t mean to be so kurang ajar or kurang asam to my mother but the thing is whenever I try to have a so called heart to heart session with her, she always macam mengelak you know. Dan itu sangat frustrating. I don’t know whether this is true or not but I can feel that she is insecure whenever I am mentioning about love or marriage to her. And I can say that she’s paranoid too. You, and me are totally different mother. And if pun you want to ‘warn’ your daughter untuk tak perlu terhegeh-hegeh to ask about such thing, you need to realize that I am 23 mother. I am not 17… So, it is totally unfair untuk treat me like that. At the age of 17, you’ve commit to get married while for me, at the age of 17, I was struggling for my SPM and I NEVER have a single thought about getting married pun mother. So, tell me salahkah if I am asking you about this kind of thing now?
People say I am so lucky to have a mother who is so sporting, and very open-minded. I am so sorry people, my mother is only sporting and open-minded when it comes to anak orang lain. Not her daughter. Kesiankan aku nie? LOL.
But never mind, I am not really really into this marriage thingy at the moment. Cuma geram and at the same time geli hati with her response je. I remember last time I need to menyorok from her each time I wanna go to the library to read books. She said library is the place where people selalu dating. I think she did that kot masa gi library dulu-dulu, I mean dating behind my grandparents and she’s afraid if I were to do that too which is sangat dan memang meleset sama sekali! You know, if other people go to the library with friends, I go to the library with my grandma kot. My grandma didn’t escort me actually, but I am the one who requests her to accompany me. Sebab apa? Sebab I really really want to read books and I don’t want my mom to think that I am going to the library untuk dating. If budak-budak lain rasanya malu kot bawak nenek pergi library. -.-
But it’s okay. I can explore life, myself. Afterall, it’s my life need to be lived. So far I did my life well, with less help from my mother. Financially, blessing and du’a of cos la she supports banyak but in terms of guidance, perkongsian reality, idea hidup kurang sikit. Tapi… Sebab my mother beginilah I am becoming what I am today which in some ways I can say I am proud to be me. Hoyeah~
Tapikan here’s some note you should take a note la yea, if you’re a mother or father yang tiba-tiba baca this entry till the end (lol), I really hope you get the message that I am trying to deliver here. As a mother and father, you need to help them and guide them. And please, if your children ask you about life do not leave them with question marks. They need help. They are curious and they really want to know. So please try to be helpful. Just be true je to them. Abis cerita.
Hola everyone!
As promised, here's the series of couple portraiture of Rizal and Wani that I've photographed 3 weeks ago. And as I told you before, I've known Wani and Rizal from blogosphere and also from photography! Guess what, Wani also a photog based in Bintulu, Sarawak. Here's Wani weblog and also Tumblr. Go and check it out, people! ;)
On the shooting day, I felt extremely nervous to shoot them and it's kinda funny when I thought about it you know. However, I really had fun shooting them. Real fun! They were so relax and watching them together really makes me melt. LOL. I am so sorry I have no other words to describe my feeling.-.-
To Wani and Rizal thanks for sharing me your love story. This so called Cinta Facebook makes me awe-ing! It's kinda cute to know that Wani's mother also involved in the conspiracy in uniting them. Mothers nowadays... :P
I am currently listening to Insha Allah by Maher Zain. Anyway terasa sedikit sengsara to write at the moment because I am writing this dengan lampu yang sudah switched off. I am in my Grandma's room and she has fallen asleep 2 hours ago while me, I have problem untuk melelapkan mata. Of course I have my own room but disebabkan I have experience yang menakutkan di dalam bilik sendiri so I dont sleep in my room except for tidur siang hari. Will tell you about it esok esok saja. Sekarang saya diselubungi kegelapan yang teramat bersama the pure silence, ngeri untuk berbicara tentang itu.
I am unhappy at the moment and I hate to have this feeling but I have no way out I guess except hanya redah saja. There are a lot of question marks, riddles as well as puzzle need to be solved... It's a combo and it relates with one and another! And honestly I feel extremely bercelaru because I do not know how to play it correctly, which one need to be solve first and worst, I dont have idea what is the game is all about actually.
Kenapa tiba tiba hati kacau eh?
Ya Allah, since you've brought me to all these I really hope you'll help me to go through all these too, ya Allah. AND MOST IMPORTANTLY HELP ME TO FINISH IT STRONG YA ALLAH. :"(
If I’m going to continue doing something with my life that takes so much of my time and energy that I can’t even take 10 minutes to read just 2 pages of the Quran a day, maybe I need to re-examine my Life Choices. - LubnaMungkin saya perlu mem-purify-kan hati, belajar lebih untuk mengenali diri dan mengurangkan duniawi.
