"...It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all – in which case, you fail by default."

The title above is actually my favorite line taken from “The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination” (Harvard Commencement Speech June 5th 2008) by J. K. Rowlings. ;)

Thanks for the response Maza, Ashiee and Kak Tie regarding the last post. I am losing my words at the moment, and I would like to apologize because I couldnt find suitable words to reply to your comments... Apa-apa pun terima kasih yea.. And Zaty, you're sangat sangat lah di-invite to my wed day! :P

Nak bagitau that I quit from doing my internship and I am officially tengah holiday for 3 month. I know it sounds crazy tapi tell me how I am going to do my presentation later, I mean nak present to my visiting lecturer nanti if I didnt do any Mechatronics related masa internship? Nak tau tak where they sent me? To consumer services ohkayh... A day after I quit from that particular company, Petra Energy offered me a placement for internship tapi it was super duper last minute and so, ...yeah here I am tidak ber-internship. Abaikan... I dont want to think about it.

I am looking for a part time job at the moment, unfortunately I havent jumpa one yet. I must must must bekerja or else bulan July nanti my weight reach 100kg! Haha. You knowlah, my grandma loves to stuff me with food, and I couldnt resist it sebab tersuper duper lah sedap. So most of the time I will lock myself in the room, surfing the internet untuk menghalang diri ini daripada digoda oleh makanan yang menggairahkan... :P

Since I spent most of my time surfing the internet je so I went to lepak-lepak at Flickr, browsing to pictures sebab only that site je yang turn me on (other that FB of course). Tapi makin hari FB makin boring. Huhu... And since dah lama tak flickring around, so banyak lah termissed photostream kawan-kawan Flickr yang lama-lama, sampailah terjumpa photostream Nasruddin Mukhtar. Here I would like to share you my fav shots taken from his Flickr. Enjoy! ;-)

Yang paling akhir ialah kesukaan saya. Gambar-gambar dia sangat best bukan? :)

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You'll find happiness when you least expect it

 Picture for today: Portrait of Diba Adibah

It is true that we will find happiness (or even love) when we least expect it - you will never be happier than you thought you would when it happens you know. 'It' as in something you wish to happen tapi taklah mengharap giler. I think you know what I mean...

Dulu-dulu I wrote an entry about someone whom I wish I could have chance to say hi to (considering I have problem to start the conversation lagi-lagi dengan dia lah kan). You can read the entry here. Few days later we did talked and it is more than a simple hi okayh... Terasa diri berada di awang-awangan sebentar. I am so happy and I screamed out loud in my room and my roommate, Mell told me she never seen me segila itu. Sungguh saya gummmbeerra! But it stops there. I am no longer excited about him. Full stop.

Talking about this, I mean the adrenaline rush thingy, the excitement, dan kebedebaran hati (ececece) whenever someone caught your attention - I realized it wont last long on me and I wonder why. Sometimes it scares me because it feels something is not right. Funny it may sound but it is true... Hm. And there was a time I told my mom about it tapi she didnt response to what I'm saying. It's a  bit frustrating tau because yelah tak dilayan and when I ask her why my mom cakap dia suka if I feel that way. My mom dont want me to kahwin awal macam dia tapi, I am 23 ohkayh and at the age of 23 well at least I should have someone special kowt... Tak ke?

It is not that no one didnt try to approach. A lot (chewah macam super banyak pulak).. Well adalah but the feeling is not there. It makes me worry tapi the so called keinginan untuk have one tu takde lah macam nak sangat-sangat. I am not that needy to have one because I am confident with myself and sangat selesa with myself. Lagipun I am afraid if I were to get involve, it wont last long. Terasa rugi disitu. Sometimes terasa I am too choosy pulak, and sometimes I feel no one deserve me as in no one yang layak but the thing is adakah saya sangat worth untuk dimiliki and ditunggu?

Jujurnya saya harap there will be one day nanti someone will take my hand and bring me out from here. I really hope he wouldnt let it go because I dont want to feel lost anymore and I am hoping I will be confident enough to let someone to hold me.

I know I am so jiwang tonight. Thanks sebab sudi layan yea... :)

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No title

No title simply because I couldnt think of any. Tak pe, I dont think it is important anyway.

Yours truly is currently in Miri. And insha Allah I will be in Miri until July and honestly I am missing everyone in KL now. Serious tak tipoo. ;( Sangat rindu gile. I have nothing much to do when I am home tau and ini sangat merisaukan! Pergerakan sangat limited, interesting places yang mudah for me to go pun sangat limited, even friends pun limited ...everything is limited lah. Worse, no shooting jobs here! Apa-apa pun welcome home, Nono.

Maza, if you read this, I would like to apologize sebab I couldnt fulfill your wish untuk shoot with me. Jujurnya, I wanted to but I dont want to promise you awal-awal as I am afraid I may not be able to fulfill it on the last minute (which is terbukti anyway). I was so busy with pindah randah college yang sangat memenatkan itu. Maaf sangat sangat Maza T.T Insha Allah, mungkin di lain kali yea.

Last but not least, before beta mahu beradu, I would like to share few portraits of my mother that I've photographed a week ago at Genting Highland (First World). :)

So that's it for now. I am off to sleep. Good night all. ;)

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Moving forward.

A very beautiful song by Mariah Carey. I am in love with it! Sangat inspiring and lovelayh... Well at least to me. Dengarlah! :)

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Anyway, I am officially done with exams and I would say, Digital Control Systems was the sucky penutup for my final examinations (for this sem). I know it was my fault...

So, I am going to sleep the failure off now. Nite nite...

Picture for today: ... sepatu purple saya

:)

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... what's next?

Picture for today: Portrait of Akmal Anuar.

Three down and one more to go. However I am not in the mood. I feel extremely tired, exhausted and sleepy. The only thing I wanna do now is hit the bed and sleep.

Talking about the 3 previous papers, Alhamdulillah I can do it well even though it wasn't really good. I really hope I can pass all the papers. Honestly, Microprocessor Based System is a very tough course. A night before the exam, I've been torturing my brain to memorize all the codes for Motorola MK68000 microprocessor because I have no other way to survive for the final. Thanks to my coursemates, they helped me a lot! We spent the entire night trying to solve the past year papers and also (as I said) memorizing the codes. In some way, I enjoyed it. May be I've just got the idea about the course kot. All these while blur nak mampos. Ngeng la~ What ever it is I appreciate my own effort. I dont really care about the result as long as I am pass. Hehe...

That's it for now. I will be back for more stories and pictures right after my last paper. Insha Allah....

P.s: I miss him. Badly...

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... not your Cinderella

I don't know if I believe in love at first sight
I think it might need just a little more time to grow and be real.
- Not your Cinderella by Catherine Britt

Nothing really personal with the title and also the quotation above. I just love the lines. Those words are taken from a song called Not Your Cinderella by Catherine Brit. And I am currently listening to it... It is quite nice tho. Try to listen to it here.

I dont really have the mood to write but the reason why I am writing this s because of these three pictures below. Ehem... :P

These are the three out of many pictures of Gja and her mister boyfie, Ijan that I photographed 2 weeks ago. I want to show you more of it but seriously, I havent finish with the editing yet. Pity Gja cus she needs to wait till I am done with my exams. Then only I can work on her pictures. Maafin guwe yea. Saya bener bener nga bisa. :(

But you can count on me girl! Once I am done with my papers, I will give my 100% attention with your pictures. :P

Last but not least, here I wanna show you the front cover (for the CD) for Friendship Portraiture: Akmal & Friends. Tadaaa...

This is my most favorite shot of them.. Sangat Comelicious!

It is 3.09AM. I am signing off. Daa..

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